Go home, soak your feet, eat dinner and go to bed.
--Anonymous, early 21st century
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Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Portrait of the Late Bloomer As An Artist
So here sits the 51-year old man who’s long felt that he has what it takes to be a writer, an artist.
Very little formal training in the written word, years gone by without devoting concerted effort to his calling late realized.
Never a word published, not so much as a letter to the Editor. Trouble imagining himself inhabiting the mental landscape of an artist, much less living real life in the world of the arts.
Fear not, Dear Reader. Click you not away from this post, for the going takes a happier turn. Mere slice of life though this is, it’s the recounting of a meaningful 36 hours, 36 and counting…
Yesterday, 15 November 2008, saw my wife, my son and myself in a real-life setting straight out of my imagined World of the Arts. At the request of the adoption agency that found us our beloved children, a well-known photographer was to take a portrait of our handsome 11-year old. From a messy home in the Long Island suburbs, an hour’s drive had brought us to Brooklyn, a series of settings from a long list of movies.
The funky multi-charactered neighborhood, a jumble (a jungle?) of mechanics’ shops, ancient factories and warehouses, both disused and converted to residential and commercial use. Playgrounds sitting comfortably under roaring overpasses. Upon meeting our friends from the agency, the too-perfect ride in a truly grungy freight elevator to:
An Artist’s Loft In Brooklyn. The whole schmear; a huge open space, big windows and skylights, hardwood floors appropriate to a living area-cum-workspace, and this factory or warehouse’s original rough brick walls. Spare, lovely furnishings dotted the place, mixing with lights, reflectors and state of the art cameras.
The photographer and her husband were welcoming and truly friendly but clearly living in another world, one that I’d give much to call home. They evinced not an ounce of pretense, and my wife and I were guileless in expressing our near awe at the setting. Perhaps we could have pulled off pretending not to be impressed, but there’d have been no point.
The beauty of the place extended to their living area. The modestly equipped kitchen was decorated with industrial shelving filled with antiques of every stripe. Ancient telephones of American and European design, crockery from exotic locales. The place was functional, comfortable and arty.
I think it a good bet that these two are living lives that they love. As the photographer worked with my son, I stumbled into a conversation with her husband about his occupation, one of several, apparently. The man manufactures high-end audio equipment. It matters not that it’s truly high-end, just that he’s doing something he obviously loves doing and in yet another field that fascinates me.
I don’t even crave his wares, particularly, I just admire his life in yet another corner of the world I’d love to live in. (Make no mistake though; if someone gifted me with a set of his $17,000 speakers and high-powered, ultra-high-fidelity amplifiers—tubes, of course—I wouldn’t turn them down. It’s just that my requirements could be satisfied by something far more modest.)
The photographer’s session with my son ended, and we were shown quick proofs. Having seen the images on her website, we weren’t surprised by the fine quality of her work. But combined with our child’s undeniable good looks, the results were breathtaking.
Time came for us to leave, so that another family invited by the adoption agency to experience this privilege could have their session.
This had been stirring stuff for me, both daunting and inspiring. These people work in different fields than I’m aiming for, but my path toward their world of creative satisfaction sure looks like a long one, and I’m still working on what could reasonably be labeled remedial craft. I could barely bring myself to discuss my mixed feelings with my wife. How the hell am I going to get to where these people are? I don’t mean their level of material success, although that sure would be nice. Hell, they’re not even household names, but they’re doing what they want to do for a living.
West on the BQE, I drove under a cloud of self-doubt that paced our car. It darkened my mood, but didn’t block my vision. My target seemed so big and so clear, but so far away.
In some ways, I’ve always been pretty good at not kidding at myself. I pinged ideas and desires off the inside of my own head and soon realized that there’s only clear path for starters:
Especially because you’re still learning the craft, do the work and don’t stop.
I suppose this also applies once an artist is truly accomplished (or cruddy but successful, as Stephen King sometimes admits to being.)
‘Learn your craft, keep writing and don’t stop’ does not conjure a vision of comfortably, confidently leaving your nine-to-five to spend your days at the keyboard, living the life of an artist. King and other writers talks about the badge of honor that is their pile of early rejection letters.
Well, writers with 100 times my drive don’t end their journey with that eventual acceptance notice, their I’m On My Way At Last certificate.
No matter. It has to not matter, or all is lost.
The simple map of my path, despite the desolate climes through which it passes, is its own odd comfort because there’s only one thing to do.
See the above if you’ve already forgotten it. This last is a note to myself as much as an ironic note to you, Dear Reader.
So, back to the Long Island suburbs and an afternoon of folding laundry and doing dishes. The most gratifying thing in store for the remaining daylight hours was to be my forty-five minutes on the cross-trainer.
Quite some time ago, this account passed the Long-Story, Short mark.
It’s not over.
For my wife and I to go into the City twice in one day is nigh onto unprecedented. However, we had tickets for an off off off Broadway show that night, at a non-profit theatre whose website I maintain. So, a hundred-mile round trip to Brooklyn in the morning, an afternoon of domesticity, and then an eighty mile round trip to Queens Theatre in the Park, home of the Outrageous Fortune Company, who use the basement performance space of QTiP’s lovely facility, sitting in the shadow of the Unisphere at the old World’s Fair site.
Here I was again, with Art, right in my face. The Outrageous Fortune Company hardly shares in the gaudy glory of the Theatre District proper, but that only made for another draught of that potent Hope And Intimidation Cocktail.
Y’see, Dear Reader, I am not intimidated by the likes of Bruce Springsteen, the Coen Brothers and Joan Didion. They operate at such a high degree of success and quality, that they don’t represent a target I have to fret over falling short of.
Something like Outrageous Fortune Company, straddling the line between Off Off Broadway and community theatre, is a different proposition. Theatre companies running at this level occasionally produce works by new playwrights; though hardly Arthur Miller, these folks are significantly closing to being Arthur Miller than I am. This, I fret over.
Matter of fact, OFC this night was producing a work by an established playwright: Yellow Face, by David Henry Hwang of M Butterfly fame. However, I’m on a first name basis with the company’s producer, these actors were all Equity but none were famous and here I was again, accessible art being practiced right in my face.
To be continued…
Very little formal training in the written word, years gone by without devoting concerted effort to his calling late realized.
Never a word published, not so much as a letter to the Editor. Trouble imagining himself inhabiting the mental landscape of an artist, much less living real life in the world of the arts.
Fear not, Dear Reader. Click you not away from this post, for the going takes a happier turn. Mere slice of life though this is, it’s the recounting of a meaningful 36 hours, 36 and counting…
Yesterday, 15 November 2008, saw my wife, my son and myself in a real-life setting straight out of my imagined World of the Arts. At the request of the adoption agency that found us our beloved children, a well-known photographer was to take a portrait of our handsome 11-year old. From a messy home in the Long Island suburbs, an hour’s drive had brought us to Brooklyn, a series of settings from a long list of movies.
The funky multi-charactered neighborhood, a jumble (a jungle?) of mechanics’ shops, ancient factories and warehouses, both disused and converted to residential and commercial use. Playgrounds sitting comfortably under roaring overpasses. Upon meeting our friends from the agency, the too-perfect ride in a truly grungy freight elevator to:
An Artist’s Loft In Brooklyn. The whole schmear; a huge open space, big windows and skylights, hardwood floors appropriate to a living area-cum-workspace, and this factory or warehouse’s original rough brick walls. Spare, lovely furnishings dotted the place, mixing with lights, reflectors and state of the art cameras.
The photographer and her husband were welcoming and truly friendly but clearly living in another world, one that I’d give much to call home. They evinced not an ounce of pretense, and my wife and I were guileless in expressing our near awe at the setting. Perhaps we could have pulled off pretending not to be impressed, but there’d have been no point.
The beauty of the place extended to their living area. The modestly equipped kitchen was decorated with industrial shelving filled with antiques of every stripe. Ancient telephones of American and European design, crockery from exotic locales. The place was functional, comfortable and arty.
I think it a good bet that these two are living lives that they love. As the photographer worked with my son, I stumbled into a conversation with her husband about his occupation, one of several, apparently. The man manufactures high-end audio equipment. It matters not that it’s truly high-end, just that he’s doing something he obviously loves doing and in yet another field that fascinates me.
I don’t even crave his wares, particularly, I just admire his life in yet another corner of the world I’d love to live in. (Make no mistake though; if someone gifted me with a set of his $17,000 speakers and high-powered, ultra-high-fidelity amplifiers—tubes, of course—I wouldn’t turn them down. It’s just that my requirements could be satisfied by something far more modest.)
The photographer’s session with my son ended, and we were shown quick proofs. Having seen the images on her website, we weren’t surprised by the fine quality of her work. But combined with our child’s undeniable good looks, the results were breathtaking.
Time came for us to leave, so that another family invited by the adoption agency to experience this privilege could have their session.
This had been stirring stuff for me, both daunting and inspiring. These people work in different fields than I’m aiming for, but my path toward their world of creative satisfaction sure looks like a long one, and I’m still working on what could reasonably be labeled remedial craft. I could barely bring myself to discuss my mixed feelings with my wife. How the hell am I going to get to where these people are? I don’t mean their level of material success, although that sure would be nice. Hell, they’re not even household names, but they’re doing what they want to do for a living.
West on the BQE, I drove under a cloud of self-doubt that paced our car. It darkened my mood, but didn’t block my vision. My target seemed so big and so clear, but so far away.
In some ways, I’ve always been pretty good at not kidding at myself. I pinged ideas and desires off the inside of my own head and soon realized that there’s only clear path for starters:
Especially because you’re still learning the craft, do the work and don’t stop.
I suppose this also applies once an artist is truly accomplished (or cruddy but successful, as Stephen King sometimes admits to being.)
‘Learn your craft, keep writing and don’t stop’ does not conjure a vision of comfortably, confidently leaving your nine-to-five to spend your days at the keyboard, living the life of an artist. King and other writers talks about the badge of honor that is their pile of early rejection letters.
Well, writers with 100 times my drive don’t end their journey with that eventual acceptance notice, their I’m On My Way At Last certificate.
No matter. It has to not matter, or all is lost.
The simple map of my path, despite the desolate climes through which it passes, is its own odd comfort because there’s only one thing to do.
See the above if you’ve already forgotten it. This last is a note to myself as much as an ironic note to you, Dear Reader.
So, back to the Long Island suburbs and an afternoon of folding laundry and doing dishes. The most gratifying thing in store for the remaining daylight hours was to be my forty-five minutes on the cross-trainer.
Quite some time ago, this account passed the Long-Story, Short mark.
It’s not over.
For my wife and I to go into the City twice in one day is nigh onto unprecedented. However, we had tickets for an off off off Broadway show that night, at a non-profit theatre whose website I maintain. So, a hundred-mile round trip to Brooklyn in the morning, an afternoon of domesticity, and then an eighty mile round trip to Queens Theatre in the Park, home of the Outrageous Fortune Company, who use the basement performance space of QTiP’s lovely facility, sitting in the shadow of the Unisphere at the old World’s Fair site.
Here I was again, with Art, right in my face. The Outrageous Fortune Company hardly shares in the gaudy glory of the Theatre District proper, but that only made for another draught of that potent Hope And Intimidation Cocktail.
Y’see, Dear Reader, I am not intimidated by the likes of Bruce Springsteen, the Coen Brothers and Joan Didion. They operate at such a high degree of success and quality, that they don’t represent a target I have to fret over falling short of.
Something like Outrageous Fortune Company, straddling the line between Off Off Broadway and community theatre, is a different proposition. Theatre companies running at this level occasionally produce works by new playwrights; though hardly Arthur Miller, these folks are significantly closing to being Arthur Miller than I am. This, I fret over.
Matter of fact, OFC this night was producing a work by an established playwright: Yellow Face, by David Henry Hwang of M Butterfly fame. However, I’m on a first name basis with the company’s producer, these actors were all Equity but none were famous and here I was again, accessible art being practiced right in my face.
To be continued…
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Coping with the XM/Sirius Merger (file under “Problems of the Middle Class”)
Coping with the XM/Sirius Merger (file under “Problems of the Middle Class”)
All the time I’d had XM since sometime in 2004, I had such a strong sense that these people knew what they were doing. This was based largely on the programming at XM channels such as Deep Tracks and Fine Tuning. The former was programmed and DJ’d by familiar figures from the 70s – early 80s heydays of my favorite stations, WMMR in Philadelphia and WNEW-FM in New York. Dan Neer and Earle Bailey were old friends, and George Taylor Morris a respected figure from their sister station in Cleveland, WMMS.
The real merit was in the songs they’d pull out of the vaults, stuff that my friends and I would swear were remembered only by us. Robin Trower’s “Too Rolling Stoned”, Captain Beyond (entire sides of their first LP), songs from the Allman Brothers other than “One Way Out” and “Ramblin’ Man”. Remarkable. Rory Gallagher, Sparks, “I’m One” from Quadrophenia, “Sally Simpson” from Tommy. Amazing. These guys knew more about rock & roll music than we did! Pre-1978 Kinks, CCR’s mini-epic “Ramble Tamble”, I could go on and on. As I write, they’re playing “Amoreena” from Elton John’s Tumbleweed Connection; I rest my case.
It was through XM’s new age channel AudioVisions that I discovered current faves Iasos and Kamal.
XM’s Fine Tuning played plenty of Yes in among a bizarre but fascinating mélange of Celtic music, blues, classical and God only knows what else.
There were only two classical music channels, but I could live with that. (The third, devoted primarily to opera, I happily ignored.)
Well, if you pay attention to this kind of thing, the XM/Sirius merger has prompted a lot of grumbling about the combining of similar channels, often with Sirius’s branding and thematic emphasis winning out. Again, this kind of “concern” is the type of luxury reserved for people with jobs who are current on their mortgages and can afford their prescriptions, in addition to going to the movies once in a while.
I actually spent/spend more time listening to XM at work, via XM Online, than I did listening to actual XM satellite radio in the car. So yesterday 11/12/08, my knickers were really in a twist over yet another merger-related foul-up in the online service. Of the two newly renumbered and slightly-rebranded classical channels one was delivering AudioVisions-type music and the other the same type of repertoire as XM’s now-departed “Escape” lounge-music channel.
Additionally, my pleasure at having access to Sirius’s Grateful Dead channel was ruined by the left channel of the feed being badly distorted.
On the other hand, I was, and remained thrilled at the all-Springsteen channel. Where are they getting the unreleased concert material? Well, it’s obvious that it’s authorized and legal and paid for, but that must be one hell of a cleverly devised licensing arrangement with Sony Records and Springsteen’s own business organization.
Today, it’s finally straightened out. One clicks on “Sirius XM Pops” or “Symphony Hall” and one gets the actual desired classical music. Y’ see, I need my beautiful, wordless classical music to help me constructively isolate, and to concentrate when I’m contemplating the complexities of my technical writing work.
Or when writing non-essential stuff like this. How much trivial self-expression is really necessary? Well, I guess this is a little more reasonable than the over-self-glorification of a MySpace page.
Especially maintaining it from work….
All the time I’d had XM since sometime in 2004, I had such a strong sense that these people knew what they were doing. This was based largely on the programming at XM channels such as Deep Tracks and Fine Tuning. The former was programmed and DJ’d by familiar figures from the 70s – early 80s heydays of my favorite stations, WMMR in Philadelphia and WNEW-FM in New York. Dan Neer and Earle Bailey were old friends, and George Taylor Morris a respected figure from their sister station in Cleveland, WMMS.
The real merit was in the songs they’d pull out of the vaults, stuff that my friends and I would swear were remembered only by us. Robin Trower’s “Too Rolling Stoned”, Captain Beyond (entire sides of their first LP), songs from the Allman Brothers other than “One Way Out” and “Ramblin’ Man”. Remarkable. Rory Gallagher, Sparks, “I’m One” from Quadrophenia, “Sally Simpson” from Tommy. Amazing. These guys knew more about rock & roll music than we did! Pre-1978 Kinks, CCR’s mini-epic “Ramble Tamble”, I could go on and on. As I write, they’re playing “Amoreena” from Elton John’s Tumbleweed Connection; I rest my case.
It was through XM’s new age channel AudioVisions that I discovered current faves Iasos and Kamal.
XM’s Fine Tuning played plenty of Yes in among a bizarre but fascinating mélange of Celtic music, blues, classical and God only knows what else.
There were only two classical music channels, but I could live with that. (The third, devoted primarily to opera, I happily ignored.)
Well, if you pay attention to this kind of thing, the XM/Sirius merger has prompted a lot of grumbling about the combining of similar channels, often with Sirius’s branding and thematic emphasis winning out. Again, this kind of “concern” is the type of luxury reserved for people with jobs who are current on their mortgages and can afford their prescriptions, in addition to going to the movies once in a while.
I actually spent/spend more time listening to XM at work, via XM Online, than I did listening to actual XM satellite radio in the car. So yesterday 11/12/08, my knickers were really in a twist over yet another merger-related foul-up in the online service. Of the two newly renumbered and slightly-rebranded classical channels one was delivering AudioVisions-type music and the other the same type of repertoire as XM’s now-departed “Escape” lounge-music channel.
Additionally, my pleasure at having access to Sirius’s Grateful Dead channel was ruined by the left channel of the feed being badly distorted.
On the other hand, I was, and remained thrilled at the all-Springsteen channel. Where are they getting the unreleased concert material? Well, it’s obvious that it’s authorized and legal and paid for, but that must be one hell of a cleverly devised licensing arrangement with Sony Records and Springsteen’s own business organization.
Today, it’s finally straightened out. One clicks on “Sirius XM Pops” or “Symphony Hall” and one gets the actual desired classical music. Y’ see, I need my beautiful, wordless classical music to help me constructively isolate, and to concentrate when I’m contemplating the complexities of my technical writing work.
Or when writing non-essential stuff like this. How much trivial self-expression is really necessary? Well, I guess this is a little more reasonable than the over-self-glorification of a MySpace page.
Especially maintaining it from work….
Friday, October 10, 2008
Imagine, but within reason
Now, I love "Imagine" as much as the next 70's-roots liberal, but I actually disagree with one part of the sentiment, and I know some of you will disagree with my disagreement.
I don't particular desire a world with "no religion, too". Uh-uh. There is no consensus among "reasonable people" (those who abhor war, famine and pestilence) that religion in itself is a bad thing. I am a grossly non-practicing Jew. I have tried attending synagogue within the last 10 years and (in a prissy Oprah-show-guest tone) "found that there was nothing for me there".
I spend every Christmas and Easter morning at my wife and kids’ Catholic church, and have beamed with great love and pride as my children were baptized, or christened or confirmed or whatever the hell it is. (Their ages being different, these were two different occasions.)
It's more an intellectual conclusion, rather than a real feeling that I have settled on regarding religion. In SOME ways, from SOME angles, there is SOME merit in taking things at face value. Churches and synagogues and mosques and their members do charity work. The clergy charge their congregations with acting properly toward other people. They promote the Ten Commandments, the first four of which are of dubious value but at worst meaningless, the fifth is arguable and the latter four of which are utterly indisputable.
All that one reads about religions causing war and division has merit of course, aside from being a tired piece of anti-religious "wisdom". BRAAAAAHHHHH (buzzer sound)---- the world is not black and white, and that particular truism cuts both ways (actually cuts all ways).
If one can argue against Big Government and others argue that government has a duty to use my tax dollars to serve the common good, which includes feeding the poor, then one can argue that local churches, synagogues and mosques do good works while their dopey national- and international-level leaders get involved with stupid enterprises like the Crusades, ignoring holocausts, and the like.
Sorry; there are contradictions in reality. I feel the good intentions around me in my wife’s church while abhorring the fucking stupid ignorant red-neck reactionary douche-baggery of the anti-choice stickers on some people's cars. (I absolutely REFUSE to use the term pro-life, because so many anti-choicers fall on the same side of things as supporters of The War, and favor capital punishment.)
"Imagine" is a lovely song, and everything it advocates is lovely and desirable, except for one. In the name of sheer logic, I'm just pointing out the flaw. Not having religion, too, might be a fine thing, but logically, it does not qualify as something that must be done away with in promotion of the Greatest Possible Good for All.
On the other hand "Instant Karma" rocks much more effectively. Very slightly less profound than "Imagine", but much funkier.
John Lennon was a very, very, very clever, creative guy, and probably a genius. But reading up on as much Beatles biography as I have, one also sees much evidence that he committed acts of violence in his youth, mis-treated his first wife and son (badly), and always admitted that he was no angel. Make no mistake though; he was my favorite Beatle; the edgiest, coolest one, and the writer of more of my super-favorite songs than any of the others.
Whew.
I don't particular desire a world with "no religion, too". Uh-uh. There is no consensus among "reasonable people" (those who abhor war, famine and pestilence) that religion in itself is a bad thing. I am a grossly non-practicing Jew. I have tried attending synagogue within the last 10 years and (in a prissy Oprah-show-guest tone) "found that there was nothing for me there".
I spend every Christmas and Easter morning at my wife and kids’ Catholic church, and have beamed with great love and pride as my children were baptized, or christened or confirmed or whatever the hell it is. (Their ages being different, these were two different occasions.)
It's more an intellectual conclusion, rather than a real feeling that I have settled on regarding religion. In SOME ways, from SOME angles, there is SOME merit in taking things at face value. Churches and synagogues and mosques and their members do charity work. The clergy charge their congregations with acting properly toward other people. They promote the Ten Commandments, the first four of which are of dubious value but at worst meaningless, the fifth is arguable and the latter four of which are utterly indisputable.
All that one reads about religions causing war and division has merit of course, aside from being a tired piece of anti-religious "wisdom". BRAAAAAHHHHH (buzzer sound)---- the world is not black and white, and that particular truism cuts both ways (actually cuts all ways).
If one can argue against Big Government and others argue that government has a duty to use my tax dollars to serve the common good, which includes feeding the poor, then one can argue that local churches, synagogues and mosques do good works while their dopey national- and international-level leaders get involved with stupid enterprises like the Crusades, ignoring holocausts, and the like.
Sorry; there are contradictions in reality. I feel the good intentions around me in my wife’s church while abhorring the fucking stupid ignorant red-neck reactionary douche-baggery of the anti-choice stickers on some people's cars. (I absolutely REFUSE to use the term pro-life, because so many anti-choicers fall on the same side of things as supporters of The War, and favor capital punishment.)
"Imagine" is a lovely song, and everything it advocates is lovely and desirable, except for one. In the name of sheer logic, I'm just pointing out the flaw. Not having religion, too, might be a fine thing, but logically, it does not qualify as something that must be done away with in promotion of the Greatest Possible Good for All.
On the other hand "Instant Karma" rocks much more effectively. Very slightly less profound than "Imagine", but much funkier.
John Lennon was a very, very, very clever, creative guy, and probably a genius. But reading up on as much Beatles biography as I have, one also sees much evidence that he committed acts of violence in his youth, mis-treated his first wife and son (badly), and always admitted that he was no angel. Make no mistake though; he was my favorite Beatle; the edgiest, coolest one, and the writer of more of my super-favorite songs than any of the others.
Whew.
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Amazing discoveries
I'm always fascinated by the possibilities of typing with one's hands not properly situated on the home row.
In another browser, still open, I tried to enter "Amazon.com". Fingers in the wrong place, I typed in "anazib.com".
Clever folks that they are, the Amazon website came up!
This is why I suggested that my employers should register an address at a very common misspelling of our name, and redirect to our site.
My suggestion went nowhere.
But I'm very impressed by this thoughtful measure that Amazon took, for their own good. What has it cost them? $100.00 per year? And they just increased the likelihood of me placing an order!
Same thing with www.anazom.com and www.anazon.com.
However, at http://www.anason.com/ I discovered a site belonging to a woman who I'll bet my friend Chazz would be interested in. I may have discovered a new friend for a friend. Huh.
In another browser, still open, I tried to enter "Amazon.com". Fingers in the wrong place, I typed in "anazib.com".
Clever folks that they are, the Amazon website came up!
This is why I suggested that my employers should register an address at a very common misspelling of our name, and redirect to our site.
My suggestion went nowhere.
But I'm very impressed by this thoughtful measure that Amazon took, for their own good. What has it cost them? $100.00 per year? And they just increased the likelihood of me placing an order!
Same thing with www.anazom.com and www.anazon.com.
However, at http://www.anason.com/ I discovered a site belonging to a woman who I'll bet my friend Chazz would be interested in. I may have discovered a new friend for a friend. Huh.
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